It was like

A black blob.... I don't know how else to describe it. All my thoughts were condensed into this superdense, black blob. If you cut it it was black, through and through. And if you tried to push it around and see what was inside it was very difficult because it was so dense. I couldn't give it any shape, any form. I couldn't extract any sort of distinct thought from it. All that it left was an all-encompassing feeling of sadness. So much so that when N Korea tested their nuke it felt as if there was no hope left in the world (as a whole - not in my personal life).

But then school came again and in order to survive I had to snap out of it... strange how things like that work.