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I don't understand. Why am I so affected like this? At one point I even questioned my own feelings for her. I asked myself if I really cared that much about her or if I just said I did. I know I tend to be overly romantic so I thought that might have been the case...but now I know for sure that I wasn't just being overly romantic. I wouldn't be so affected one month and one day later. I miss her so much. I never realized someone could affect me so much, in such a deep way. It hurts knowing that she might hate me...she doesn't want to talk to me...I don't want to go on break and not see her before she leaves...that would be horrible...I need her to know, somehow, that I haven't forgotten her, and that I hope she won't forget me either...but right now it seems like she doesn't want anything to do with me. I still haven't said "break up"...I can't...it's too hard. I believe she'll come back to me one day. I just hope that day is sooner than later, I miss you so much - more than I thought.