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Thanks to everyone who laughed their heart out last night! That was the goal! If you want to join in on the fun download the two clips below (total 20mb, at the bottom of the page that loads there will be a link that will appear, sorry about the slow speed, I'm working on getting a new server):

Part 1: popmedley1.avi
Part 2: popmedley2.avi

It's a pop-song medley that I did with Andres and Kelvin, hahahaha. We only had 3hrs to put this together! We'll never forget this one, lol.

It's taken me awhile, but I've finally been able to get myself to concentrate on being myself again. After what happened...three weeks ago :'( :'(...I couldn't be myself. I was always thinking about what happened, where things went wrong, could I have done anything differently (I've determined yes)... I wasn't able to be normal, I couldn't concentrate on (let alone do) work, I couldn't get myself to go do fun things with my friends... I was at a complete loss.

But Thanksgiving changed that. Thanksgiving was the best break of my entire life, and it helped me realize that there's room in my life to live it and think of her at the same time. I found myself goofing off and exchanging verbal blows with Alicia (like old times), baking with Megan, agreeing with Rishi on how crazy Alicia really was, and laughing when Amber went ghetto on us. And yes - I finally started to sing-a-long to my favorite songs, songs which I had been avoiding.

I was actually smiling and laughing, something I hadn't really done in the past three weeks. Surely, when there was a pause in the action I found myself thinking about her (the full day of shopping was a lot of thinking), but I was still enjoying myself. Break showed me how to be myself and still remember, reminicse, and miss the times I shared with her. I don't think of it as moving on, rather I think of it as continuing and bringing it along for the ride - as opposed to stopping and becoming "Stuck In The Moment" (in the words of U2). Even though I'm beginning to be myself again, I'm still waiting for her, hopefully one day. But until that day, I'm going to live my life, remember, and hope.