Just when you think...

I thought I had finally learned how to live again after Thanksgiving...boy was I wrong. For some unknown reason I was miserable yesterday, though I guess it started two evenings ago. I couldn't stop thinking about her, and even though I was trying to do things I usually enjoy, I just couldn't get myself to be happy. I talked to Megan for awhile on the phone...almost started crying again...Went to pool night with Darlena. Played a game with Matt and then another game with pairs vs. Darlena and Jennifer (Yuka was on my team). We ate at Appel after that...I guess I laughed a little, but it was only a brief escape. Pool night sort of reminded me of the HKSA vs. SSA pool tourney. Went bowling later with Jennifer and Darlena, did well, but bowling has a lot of down time so I thought about her a lot. I went bowling alone once in CO when I was sad...it was relaxing...but doesn't really help me too much I guess... Darlena came over afterwards and we talked for a few hours about what was on my mind... I guess I felt a little better after that, but it was pretty late so I was also getting tired. ::sigh:: I just don't know what's going on anymore... I guess it's because winter break is getting closer... I guess it's because it's almost been a month... five more days... :'(....::sigh::