I Believe...

If you forget the way, I'll be waiting
I do it for you.

So I finally saw her tonight...after four months I finally spent time with her and played mahjong, listen to her play piano, talk, and laugh. I was so happy tonight - and she said she had a lot of fun too (which made me happier). I'm a little less confused now - I know I still care for her, but now it's in a much more mature fashion. I wish I could show her how I've grown and become better...I wish I could have that second chance. One of the guys who was hanging out with us came in at one point and said some couple was back together. She was so happy for them, "Yay! I was hoping they'd get back together!" I can only hope she would say or thinks the same about us.

I still have our story and a letter I wrote for her. I also have her belt for the model I made her...I actually need to make a new one - she has a new belt now (she's on her way to black ^_^). Will I send her the letter or give her the belt? I'd really like to...but I don't want to worsen things between us - we're at least friends now (which is better than the last relationship I had...I'm not bitter...just...I guess disappointed). I don't want to hurt her...take her back to someplace she doesn't want to go.....I'll still have to think about it a long time....But anyways...I still care for her - I miss her.