An Evening Alone

::sigh:: Everyone is upstairs in Ariel's room playing "modified" Mahjong (=drinking game). I'm just hanging in my room...I feel lonely when everyone else is able to go up and have fun and do crazy (hopefully nothing stupid...I don't think they will) things together. I can't get myself to go up there and see how things are like...I don't want to see any of them drunk and accidentally make a complete fool of themselves....I hate seeing people do that to themselves. :: sigh :: And why does life have to be so confusing right now? :: sigh :: I don't know what to do about it...and I don't think I'm really ready to talk about it...