Still confused....

Ok....so I'm confused....I don't know what I feel....what I think. So I haven't seen her in almost 3 months... but I think about her still from time to time...I miss what we had together (while we had it).....but....do I miss her still? Do I still feel that flutter? I haven't seen her ... I don't know.... I mean I almost cried when I saw her for that BRIEF moment.... but were those tears of missing the person you care most about or were they tears of realizing that it was finally over - case closed? I don't know....

And now here's where I get more confused.....there may be someone else.......................................She reminds me about 'the above'....so I'm a little scared.....am I starting to search for who I lost in her? Am I looking for the wrong things? Am I just searching for a way to fix being alone again? I mean.... I've started to be able to point out unique things about her that I like....and tonight....well, something happened and the very first thing that popped to my mind was "Well, it's quite fitting for you." (this in a very positive context). And yes...I'm going to stay vague.

::sigh:: I just don't know what I'm thinking.....

AND I think one of my other friends may like her already (not very positive at all though, just a hunch)....... but in which case I am not under any circumstances having a repeat of last time..... I don't want to damage another friendship....... knowingly or otherwise.

::sigh:: Why does it feel like these things always happen to me?