Add more oil...

Why does no one encourage me? All I need is a little encouragement, someone to tell me that even though what I'm doing is hard, that they think I can do it. How about a "good luck" without the sigh of "you're going to need it." It feels like people look down on me because I'm doing so much. Maybe they think that I think I'm better than them because of it. Do you think I really want to be in this situation? Even outside of my academics... I cook on Friday and Saturdays because it gives me the time to make something special for you guys. You have the "thrown together" meals 5/7 days of the weekm can't I make you both something special? Something that takes more time? I'm sorry that it's been late lately...I'll start cooking earlier. But can't I still make you something special? I almost started crying when you said that I do too much and shouldn't cook like that. Why can't I do something special for you? I just want to do something special...something to make your lives a little better.

When will someone say, "You can do it," instead of, "You can't do it"? When will someone believe in me?

Thank you to you who tells me to add more oil...you're the only one who's encouraged me.