No one is here...

I think I'm annoying her... I don't know what I'm doing... I have this scare that secretly she and George are already together and they're just not telling me about it. Everyone else knows, but not me. I would rather know... I would rather know that she's happy with someone else. At least I would know she's happy. I have a feeling that I'm going to have bad dreams tonight.

I wish I had more opportunities to show her how I care. If you ever feel the time is right... please tell her. I'm too afraid to damage our friendship to do anything. But I hate keeping my feelings bottled up inside. This is very strange I know, but I occasionally get the urge to brush back those stray strands of hair that fall across her forehead. Of course I would never do that... but it shows my state of mind. I really care about her... and I'm not even sure the people who I talk to even understand... Most people think I'm weird when it comes to my feelings towards other people... they haven't lived the life I have and, luckily, don't know how it feels not to feel.

And she disappears without saying a word... a word of thanks.... a word of laughter... a word of acknowledgement. Does she know I'm here?