Omg...maybe I'm not so sure....

So I was upstairs earlier talking with the first girl I like.....I'm still attracted to her. Maybe I'm just trying to say I'm attracted to only one girl so that my mind doesn't have to deal with swinging in the middle and can give itself a solid foundation to stand on. It certainly makes it hard to interpret one's feelings if they're constantly swinging.... But I think I'm in a state of liking two girls simultaneously... Are they both sincere? Or are they both because my mind/body/heart feels like it needs to fill in a void that was left behind? I know the first girl better than I do the second...perhaps this is why I find myself keep coming back to her? I'll give myself some time to get to know this new girl better. I mean, I've known her since last year, but not closely. Maybe if I can spend more time with her and get to know her personality better I will start being pulled closer or pushed away. Or perhaps enough time will pass and I'll realize this is all a desperate effort to fill a hole in my life and that none of it is sincere. I'll give it time. (I just wish I had more of it.)