Sticks and stones can break my bones...

and words can sometimes hurt me...

I wonder how often I'm lied to.......I always try to be honest to people, I really try hard not to lie. I want to show people who I am and not a façade. That's part of the reason why I started writing here...not only was I feeling writing privately wasn't helping me anymore, but I wanted people to see who I truly was....perhaps I'm not bold enough to tell them face to face, but if they can read it they can learn. But I don't want to hide behind a mask. But...how often do people lie to me? She definitely has a boyfriend now....and it sounds like they're really happy together - I'm happy for her, truly I am. All I ever wanted was for her to be happy, I just failed at doing that...But I can't help think that I was lied to....did she really mean what she said? Did she really care as much as she said? Would it have ended so suddenly if she did? I guess I'll never know...I wonder if I want to know. It just hurts to be lied to... But by no means am I accusing her or pointing fingers...I've just been wondering. I've recently been thinking about what happened between Han and I too because of she and I..... I'm hurt so much by that.....he's happy for her with her new bf, but he made it very clear that he wasn't happy about me being with her... I lost a friend...and a girlfriend....and what did I gain? Surely I gained the experience with her, the feelings I had while with her...but if I was lied to was any of it real? That's what hurts the most... - secrets and lies.