A conversation

C: i guess she played bowling in her elegant way right..so u miss the target becoz u were focused on her elegance?
C: no offense...just joking....what did u see/feel?
Me: well besides her elegance :)
Me: idk...i've started noticng more details..... when she smiles her right dimple appears first if she doesn't smile all the way...and she makes funny faces alot....and she looks so cute when she does it (but cute not in the little kid type of way...idk, it's somehow different)...and when she squints, like this smiley >_< i just melt
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C: icic
C: so her image of all these keep flashing in ur mind
C: yeah i know..i mean i understand how that feels
C: wow that super happy moment..when ur eyes met hers....did u melt?
Me: idk...i still feel slightly fast paced....some from the memories...some from thinking she's still closer to george (though i'm trying not to think of that....)
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C: um...i just think ur dream is ur fear...nothing is happening yet...like u said even if anything meant to happen it will be after the summer
Me: yeah.... i'm just scared because my other premonitions come true a lot......and it felt like one of those
C: there's a saying that u fear too much to make it true

How right she is....my coach in high school used to say believe in something and you will make it true. I respected - respect him - so much for that (among other things). I lost sight of that...I need to find it in myself again.

And now I can picture that picture in my head when I go to sleep without having to look at it....I really love that picture (and that moment when our eyes met...).