Flying In Solitude

Have you ever wanted to fly? Well, not just wanted...but truly had the urge? A couple of days ago when I was walking across the field to Appel the wind was really strong and the skys were overcast. When I was walking I just wanted to have a big gust of wind take me away...anywhere...somewhere.....take my troubles away and take me far away, never to come back to this world - almost in a way like Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon at the end..... I really wanted this to happen....and not in a "that would be cool" sense, but in a "I might finally be at peace" sense... Today too, I looked at the sky - it wasn't windy - and it looked like there was a hole between the layers of clouds (again it was overcast, but darker than the first time). I wished I could just suddenly disappear through the hole in the clouds. I'd leave everything behind...just so that I can find some tranquility.... A place of perpetual tranquility......

But even there I'd miss her.....

I have so much more on my mind...but not the stamina to write now......