Knowing vs. Believing

I know. I know, trust me I know.

It's so hard to believe right now, so difficult. It sits there on top of my brain pretending to be a simple factoid, a truth. Yet it is, nevertheless, not a certainty, but an amalgam of experiences, stories, hopes, and dreams - but they're all from others, not from within. Hence it sits, on top of the brain, unable to near the point where thought becomes belief and it embeds itself into the deepest furrows of the heart.

I know. I know, trust me I know.

But I can't believe, just not yet.