why oh why

She brought up the fact that she still hasn't told me her age... did she not read my journal? If she did, does she still not realize how much that hurt me? How it still hurts to know that she doesn't trust me? If she does,then does she want to hurt me to turn me away from her? Why would she want to do something like that? She said I should date someone because that person is very independent and apparently "I LOVE independent people." Why does she say these things to me? Why does she want to make this so hard on me?

She looks absolutely beautiful in her new profile picture... My heart beats faster and then I get a knot in my chest when I look at it...