What to do...

She's here... I want to tell her, I want to. But... I know she's tired, she wanted to talk, so I think she'll bring it up at some point... when? It's so hard to look at her... She saw her wall... I don't know what she thought... it was dark so she couldn't see the details, she didn't ask, and I'm afraid to bring it up unless she does. I miss her so much. I want to be able to hold her close and tell her that everything will be alright, that we can make it together. That there is a future for us. This is so hard... I want her here, but at the same it's painful, lonely, it hurts.